Depressed again. About my weight, as usual. hopped on the scale today. 80 pounds. My god, I hate it. It is so difficult to lose weight because the process is so slow. Yet, to gain it is so easy. People say, “just stop eating.” This is not so simple when, not only do you not control the kind of food that is bought in the house, but are reduced to choosing between eating what is cooked or starving. I know. I’ve tried. And let me tell you: string beans and corn do little to help fill you up. You’ll die. It’s hell.
I just left about three minutes ago to get an oatmeal pie. I am finishing it up. I’m thinking maybe I should wait to diet. Like after Thankgiving. I know, that sounds convenient. Probably ‘cause it is.Depressed again. About my weight, as usual. hopped on the scale today. 80 pounds. My god, I hate it. It is so difficult to lose weight because the process is so slow. Yet, to gain it is so easy. People say, “just stop eating.” This is not so simple when, not only do you not control the kind of food that is bought in the house, but are reduced to choosing between eating what is cooked or starving. I know. I’ve tried. And let me tell you: string beans and corn do little to help fill you up. You’ll die. It’s hell.
I have a 200 and something pound friend who is perfectly happy with herself. Maybe I should be too, but I’m not. This friend is slightly taller than me. I am 5’0. Fat and short don’t mix. And you know what, I don’t think I should be okay with myself. Being 50 pounds over your ideal weight is not alright. I know it isn’t because if it was, it wouldn’t bring so many problems with it.
